I’m in my little bubble, my impenetrable bubble. I feel like I’m teetering right now. School is in a decent place, my life is in a decent place, my job is in a decent place, money is in a decent place. Everything is protected for now. The thing is that I’m teetering. Things aren’t “decent” forever, either they get really bad, or they get really good. I need to make the decision.
School
I have pretty much put that one on the back burner, I’m making low A’s/high B’s enough to get by, and it looks like I’ll be able to get a job pretty easily. For now I get done what needs to be done and that’s about it.
Work
I try to work about 30-35 hours a week, making sure that I don’t have to worry about money. It’s really nice to go get groceries and not have to penny pinch. At the same time, I think I’ve gotten loose with my spending and need to keep an eye on myself because I could either stay on budget and be safe or teeter into minute debt, which is not cool.
Life
Oh life. I don’t know what I want. Actually, I do know what I want, but I don’t have enough time to foster it and water it and make sure it prospers. I will be gone in a little over a year and I don’t want to have to break something off that’s going well. I can’t take heartbreak drama #2. I am finally 100% completely over it and I’m happy with just being me, but at the same time it would be nice to have someone there to talk to, to do things with, to sleep with, etc. I don’t know, it’s just been a long long time since a guy has truly cared for me when I truly cared back, and I miss it.
So here I go teeter totter:
A’s——————————B’s
Spending—————————-Saving
Single———————————Relationship
I teeter and I totter, time will only tell on which end I fall.
